2016 got a bad reputation, didn’t it?
For me it was the year of not’s. All the things that didn’t happen. All the things that weren’t me. All the things I let go of.
I started my year by backing out of my move to Italy, which was a Big Deal. A dream I’d had for about a decade suddenly didn’t pay off in the way I thought it would and I realized my priorities were very different. So I didn’t go.
I did travel, though. And move. And travel some more. I did a brief stint in Philadelphia (not home) and spent a month in LA (also not home). I (pretty much) stopped doing yoga in favor of weightlifting and I spent a lot of time experimenting with my style and appearance which, for me, is one of the most telling ways I express myself. The more I try to fiddle and change things on the outside, the more I’m trying to evolve on the inside.
I don’t think I met any of my goals from last year, except going to Berlin. I kind of like that, though. It means that even with these specific goals in mind, I was still evaluating the process to figure out what works best for me. And declining to continue on a specific path is 100% a part of that process.
I progressed. That’s the most important part.
As I look forward to the next year, I feel like keeping things simple. Spend considerably less time online, more time in analog mode. Get stronger. Draw more. Work hard. Learn about all the yes’s. All the things I do like and want.
They’re vague goals. But they leave a lot of room to maneuver within that. And that’s all I need.